i think i’m a banana tree…

My short break from blogging turned into a long break!

Trying to figure out what I wanted this blog to be was entirely too stressful for me.  Who says this needs to be a peppy how-to guide or a something that shows only the functional side of my life or that there always has to be a happy ending or moral to the story?  Oh, no one said that?  It was just me putting all that pressure on myself to be some imaginary version of me?  Hmm.  Well, yeah.  That sounds about right 🙂

Now that I’ve stopped stressing about making this into some wonderful blog I can go back to having fun with it.

In addition to taking a break from blogging, I have also been taking a break from exercising and eating right.  Judging from how tight my pants are fitting, it’s probably best that I get back into working out, like now.  Speaking of healthy habits, I have a cake and frosting recipe that I must share with you 😛  Trust me, it’s worth it.  Look for it this weekend.

We have one more month of summer vacation.  I can’t decide if I want to be excited about another month of no school or if I’m itching for everything and everyone to get back to normal.  Or at least some form of normalcy!  Maybe I’ll leave that decision for another day.  Today I’m going to finish the laundry (don’t be jealous), make my new favorite dinner (zucchini pasta boats, it’s ok to be jealous about this one!) and meet my new counselor (because I’m going slightly mad).  Maybe I’ll sneak in a vanilla soft serve with cherry dip from Dairy Queen on my way home tonight 🙂

Have a good night and see you again soon!


you were zero for a whole year, now you’re one!

Happy Birthday to my sweet Noah!  My beautiful brown-eyed boy who loves to scoot on his bum and stick out his tongue when he’s going after his brothers’ toys.  I’m sure you don’t remember, but you had a rough start with your never-ending jaundice, your insanely sensitive stomach and the pterodactyl cries that went on for hours on end every.single.night.  Thankfully we made it through and you’ve turned into quite a happy little guy. We love you to pieces and are so very happy that you joined our not-so-little family 🙂

I had a hard time deciding which pictures from the last year I should share so please excuse the picture overload.  While I was putting these together I realized that I take a lot of pictures of this kid while he’s either hanging out in my arms, nursing, sleeping or doing all three at the same time 🙂  I also noticed that my iPhone pictures far outnumber my fancy dslr-that-i’m-not-qualified-to-properly-use pictures.  So I guess I know what I’ll be breaking out this weekend!

Here we go!  A year of Noah!

here comes the mama-razzi

I am trying to document this precious moment with you! Now will you please hold still so I can get a nice picture!! GAH!!

Tell me I’m not the only one who has done this. You’re having a beautiful peaceful moment with your child and you want to document it so that you’ll never forget it but then you end up ruining the moment in the process. I did this a few days ago when Noah and I were having a moment. He had just finished nursing and was looking up at me with his big beautiful eyes, just a shade darker than his daddy’s, and his little smile. You know the kind, the ones that melt your heart. I can’t even come close to describing how beautiful my baby boy was to me at that moment. And that’s the image that I want to remember when I’m old and in the mood to reminisce. Or when I’m crazy mad at him for doing some fool headed thing when he’s older 🙂 So of course, when I oh so carefully went to take a picture with my phone, he perked right up and the moment was gone.

I love taking ridiculous amounts of pictures of my boys as they’re growing up. I want to be able to document things both big and small; from the family vacations to the everyday stuff like playing in their room. Part of the reason for this is that I don’t have very many pictures from my childhood. A good portion of them were lost or ruined by my mom after she and my dad divorced. Who would have guessed that leaving photo albums out in the rain would ruin the pictures?! And it’s kind of a bummer to not have pictures of birthday parties or summertime fun from when I was a kid. So, sometimes I go overboard with the pictures, but I want the boys to be able to see that there were so many moments in their lives that we felt were important enough to document.

Now, very few of the pictures I take are ever printed out. Once or twice a year I’ll print out a huge batch and we’ll stick them in photo albums. The really good ones end up in frames on our walls. And I’ve started a tradition of doing a yearly photo book for them through Shutterfly. I usually do a smaller book for each one on their birthdays. But the vast majority of them are just sitting in our computer. Do you backup your photos regularly? If not, do it! I learned my lesson after Jacob’s newborn pictures were deleted. Gone. Poof. Never to be seen again 😦 Over the weekend Jacob pulled out a handful of albums and poured over them. He asked questions about each picture and wanted to hear stories about the people in them. I love going through pictures with Jacob. One of our favorites is this one of Grandma Dotzie,

Isn't she just beautiful?!

Isn’t she just beautiful?!

Grandma Dotzie is my mom’s mom and we (my sister and cousin and I) spent a good portion of our time with her when we were growing up. She died three years ago this coming April but Jacob remembers her and talks about her a lot. And now I’m getting all teary thinking about Dotzie and I know I’ll start rambling if I don’t stop myself.

Anyway, I guess that’s the point of taking pictures. Knowing that the boys will be able to open up an album whenever they feel like it and can flip through the pictures remembering and sharing stories with each other… that’s what I want. And that’s why I take so many pictures of them. That, and it’s fun 🙂 A few recent pics of the boys…


Liam was not happy that he had to share a bath with his brother


Noah doesn’t care who’s in there with him, he just wants to play!


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walking home from school… he looks thrilled.

I am thankful that my kids indulge me in my snap-happy ways. And believe it or not, I have gotten better about not ruining special moments by trying to take pictures of the moment. So the point of all this? Take pictures of the kiddos!  I doubt you’ll ever say that you wish you hadn’t taken as many pictures of them as children 🙂